Someone

I'm at a loss for words
I want to fill this blank page
I want to tell you just how I feel
And not hear you argue

I want to just look at you
Until I fall in love
I want to want you so bad
Until you're the one I'm with
Forever

And yet I can't bring myself to love,
To like you as I thought I did
I wish I could help
I would do anything to help

But what do I want?
Let's flip the camera around

I want a girl who knows
Just what to say, just what to do
Who will love me with my bed-head
And all my imperfections

Can you be that someone?
I messed up the first time
But not today, oh today
Is up to you

"Are you that someone?"
I should be asking
She's out there, that someone
Hiding from my sight

I'm waiting for her, that someone
While my life moves on, I'll wait here
For the girl of my dreams
Waiting for that angel made mortal

With all your feelings
With all the temptation
I don't know whether to hold you
Or search for that someone else

With all our wants alike
We still live worlds apart
With our hearts in the same place
But still a thousand miles away

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This was a poem about the ex that I talk about in "Look and See". Even though we broke up, we saw each other sometimes and talked, both of us doubting whether we should have split up in the first place. When we started to talk about getting back together, one of my friends was very much against this and I felt so annoyed that I wrote this poem. I never showed her the poem and we ended up not getting back together. The last stanza is one of my favorite stanzas I've written.